So, this is it, I have officially survived my first day of a new decade. How does it feel? Well, to be completely honest, it feels exactly the same, minus one thing. I woke today feeling off, as does tend to happen when you somehow sleep until 5 p.m., but I felt a resurgence of energy, inspiration, and life. 2010 was the most transitional year I have experienced up to this point. I would like to say that it was transitional in a good way, though that isn't really the case. I experienced the end of a college era and the beginning of my so called "adult life". I experienced the heartbreak that came with the end of a three year relationship. I experienced the effects of financial trouble and I experienced the feeling that try as hard as you might, things often do not go as planned. With so many things bogging me down day by day and the floating memories of the life I envisioned for myself post-graduation, 2010 rapidly became a year I would like to discard. I was determined to have the best new year's eve embracing my singleness (not loneliness!), dancing away my sorrows (not drinking them!), and bracing myself for 2011 (not dreading!). All in all I would say last night was a success: I did not need a new year's kiss to smile at midnight, I did not need alcohol to have a good time, and I did not allow any grand expectations for the new year to enter my mind. Now, as for my new found zest to celebrate myself, I have decided there are three major things I would like to accomplish this year.
One: ENJOY the simple things in life. The colors of the world. The sounds. The smells. The textures. Perhaps this would lead me into photography? Anything is a possibility!
Two: CREATE a life I can be proud of. Don't wait for things to happen, make them happen. This means landing a job I can say I worked hard for (placing the job of "waitress" sans career category on my blog made me realize I am really, really over feeling subpar to myself). This means staying close to the friends I want to be a part of my long-term future. This means doing more things for others. Volunteering? Sure!
Three: SWEAT it all out. I know I have said this many years past and will say it in the years that have to come, but I want to feel good about myself. I want to look in the mirror and know that I worked for my body, that it's healthy, and that I did it through will power, perseverance, and enjoyment. This means I will get the full usage out of my gym membership, not pay twenty dollars a month to go eight times. This means I will put things in my body that it needs, not that I crave (although I don't mind an indulgence here and there). This means that even if I don't lose the weight, I can say I am fit, healthy, and happy. After all, weight is just but a number.
Alas my glass is empty, but I shall continue to update the world on the progress of creating a happy, healthy life for myself as the year continues.
-Lauren
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